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- Time to Dance - Demo

wow i havent been on here in forever.
im only on here cause im procrastinating. . .yeah.
much has changed but most is still the same.
so, how has everyone been?
i have ... lifes a rollercoaster and im on my way to the top of another amazing drop.
so i guess that means that im doing great...for now.

school is great. i love school this year. and its not as hard as i expected it to be. 3 ap classes, pssh, i want 5. . . yeah. lol. but its not that hard. and i love ap "death" chem. best class ever. and ap "stone" hahahahha. mr. stone is the coolest english teacher ever. and apush. wow. i love pendry. shes such an awsome teacher. oh and im taking french! madame messiner is awsome. i love school this year. except math. i still hate math. but i have math with aj and we get to play the "i heart you" game. at least i get that to look forward to everyday.

sports...yeah...umm...next subject. lol. so i went to el paso for a national team tennis tournerment. and we won! sweet!!! BUT there were a couple conflicts between me, my sister and our roomates, and the team mom. so yeah. long story short. i ran away the last night to prove a point. didnt play the last day. still got credit for winning. and i quit tennis. i really want to go back, i just dont want to deal with it. so i think im done with club tennis and i might only play high school tennis from now on. still retired from soccer. but i am managing wrestling. and i would much prefer to wrestle but...im not up to that. im not as awsome as the wrestling team. but hey i'll support them cause they ROCK!

music...IS MY LIFE!!!! just like rice. hehehehe. oh and the day before thansgiving i decided to be semi-vegitarian. yeah. im not against meat, i just dont like it as much. like chocolate. i dont like it as much anymore. so im thinking that if i eat salad and vegitables and fish (SEMI) then i'll eventually want meat again. or i might like being the way i am. so yeah.

well i have a crap load of homework to do still. oh and im TRYING to not curse anymore cause i had to do 20 pushups for cursing. yeah. and it wasnt my fault. but yeah whatever. i like pushups and working out. maybe i'll curse again just to do more pushups.

happy holidays to everyone!

ps.

if you have myspace...ADD ME!

www.myspace.com/exitosus_mnemosyne (how original!)

pPs!

im in love with my ex. im literally screwed. and there is no reason for you to know this but i cant keep it to myself.

im depressed. for no apparrent reason. im just having a bad couple of days. but i'll snap out of it eventually. right?

3 DAY WEEKEND!!! sooooooooooooooooooooooo. what do i do on my first 3 day weekend? HOMEWORK! yes im a nerd/dork/jock/etc.
AP Chem : do chapter 3 questions. read chapter 4. print out chapter 4 notes. do chapter 4 questions. finish chapter 2 ap worksheet. start chapter 3 ap worksheet.
French 1: study body parts.
AP Eng: reformat essay. study SAT words. write SAT sentences.
Alg. 2: do chapter 2 questions. (chapter 3 if have time).
APUSH: read the previous 2 chapters and the next chapter.
CiT: type observations. do handouts.

so i have quite a bit to do. as well as my social life. i need to hang out with my friends and all that good stuff too.

but dont forget tennis. im going to tex'ass in a week so i got to keep on practicing.

wow im busy. hope your school year is going great!!!

happily ever after...part deux

whats better than a weekend where i get to really hang out. and honestly not to many people come to my house to take me away for a couple hours. so i appreciated it soooooo very much. i find it funny how im starting to become happy. mostly because its having a good domino effect ever since saturday when i went to the church. maybe there is a god. maybe things will stay better for me this time. all i know is that i made 3 great new friends. one i knew for a while, but never had a friendship with. and two that just make my life so interesting that its hard. but i appreciate it. and i dont think i would like it any other way. if only my life could be like it has been since saturday. then everything will be perfect.

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and i lived happily ever after...the end.

happily ever after...

my brain is playing mind games with me.
its not nice.
its confusing me.
its telling me to die.
but i know better.
but i cant control everything i do.
im scared for the first time in a long time.
i dont want to die.
i have so much to do.
there is so much to live for.
but i need to get out of here.
i dont feel safe.
i dont feel at home.
all i want is for someone to be here for me.
i want someone who really cares.
i want to be happy.
i dont want to think about this ever again.
there is so much left for me to do.
i wont give up.
but i dont have a choice.
i just want to belong somewhere.
and be happy.
i want to know that things can only get better.
not worse.
i dont want to drown in the music anymore.
i dont want hurt myself anymore.
i want my chance to be happy.

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